I miss your mess on the desk that somehow always has the pen I need.
I miss waking up to your notifications and then realizing it's you.
02I miss your forehead on my shoulder when we watch the news.
03I miss you more when I pass the bench where you kissed me.
04I miss the small apology texts you send after you curse at traffic.
05I miss learning a new bad habit every week because of you.
06I miss the way you make cereal and forget to add milk sometimes.
07I miss your half-finished sentences that I can finish for you.
08I miss you in the middle of a joke that only we laugh at.
09I miss the way you answer the door with your hair still messy.
10I miss pressing my phone to my ear and hearing you breathe.
11I miss the smell of your jacket when I open the closet.
12I miss the way you leave crumbs on the counter and then blame the cat.
13I miss the creak you make on the steps when you come home.
14I miss you more at 3 a.m. when the house is quiet.
15I am holding out hope you'll call tonight, even if it's only to say goodbye properly.
16I put your worn paperback on the shelf by the window where you liked it.
17I forgive you for the small things that kept piling up between us.
18I scribbled the recipe you liked on the back of an envelope and left it on the stove.
19I left the spare sunglasses in the glove compartment like you always ask me to.
20I am tired of pretending I'm okay, so I'm telling you: I'm not.
21Please take the dented tin of coins from the jar if you want the luck.
22I will miss waking up to the smell of your coffee more than I thought I would.
23I folded your letter into the back pocket of the jacket I borrowed from you.
24I saved the receipt from the camera shop where you fixed the strap.
25Don't drive too fast today; I can't stand picturing you on that road.
26I kept your playlist on shuffle so I can hear you in short bursts.
27Take the houseplant that keeps surviving my lack of water — it needs you more.
28I will remember your shoelace knot because it's how you tie every morning.
29I'm sorry for the nights I woke you to ask small stupid questions.
30I tucked the spare chargers together in the pouch with the stickers.
31I wish I could sit beside you one more time and not say anything at all.
32I called the vet and left a message about Milo; don't freak out on the drive.
33I wrapped your headphones in the drawer so they won't fray in transit.
34I am thinking of you now, plain and heavy, and that thought won't leave me.
35Take the spare key on the hook under the fern if you need to come back for something.
36I'm glad we argued and said the hard things; I needed that honesty before goodbye.
37I left a note in your wallet by the receipt for the burger place.
38I don't know how long this is; I'm scared but I believe you'll be okay.
39I wish I had packed your shirts less messily, you'll know where to find them.
40I found the ticket stub from the gig and I folded it into the book for you.

