When you laughed at my terrible dad joke by the lake, I knew I wanted to wake up to that laugh forever—will you marry me?
That leftover slice of your lasagna in the fridge is still mine if you don't want it, but thinking of you this afternoon made me smile.
02I open the box with the ribbon you used and I smell paper and you and want you here.
03I miss how your voice sounded when you promised to worry less about small things.
04I still have a crumb of that dessert stuck to the plate and it reminds me of you.
05I miss the way you stared at the ring after you put it on me.
06I keep checking our messages from that evening and smiling at every typo you made.
07I read the card you wrote me that night and every sentence makes me miss you more.
08I miss the quiet laugh you made when I pretended to faint.
09I still have the receipt from the florist and I look at the numbers like they're a date.
10I miss the way your thumb brushed mine when you reached for the ring.
11I keep humming the tune you hummed before you asked and it makes me miss you.
12The little dent in the table from your knee feels like proof and I touch it when I'm missing you.
13I miss how your voice cracked on the last word and then steadied.
14I press my hand where yours was when you slid the ring on and hold the spot for a minute.
15I miss stealing your fork at the reception and how you pretended not to notice.
16I replay the exact sentence you used and it still makes my chest go tight.
17There's a photo of your shoes by the step and I look at it when I need you near.
18I miss how you fumbled the words and then chose the one that mattered.
19I keep the napkin with your lipstick in my wallet and it surprises me in quiet moments.
20I miss the awkward way you cleared your throat before you spoke that night.
21Sometimes I say your name out loud like it's a password back to that hallway.
22I found the tiny scuff on the ring and it makes the whole thing feel more real and mine.
23I can't stop picturing how you breathed right before you asked me and I miss that breath.
24I pulled the bow from the flowers you gave and put it under my pillow.
25I miss the quiet you made when you was thinking of the words to ask me.
26I keep checking my phone hoping for a photo from that night even though we took plenty.
27I miss the small, embarrassed grin you had when you realized you were crying.
28The ring box is on my dresser and I find myself touching it during boring meetings.
29I keep replaying your voice saying my name during the proposal and it feels unfair how much I miss it.
30I miss the way you wiped cake from my chin without asking.
31There's a speck of confetti on my coat and every time I brush it off I miss you.
32When I close my eyes I go back to that hallway and the silence that followed the question.
33I keep reaching for your jacket from that night even though it's too big for me.
34I found the slice of cake you stole and hid in the fridge and I laughed out loud alone.
35Thinking about the way you laughed after I said yes makes me miss you more than I expected.
36Your hands were shaking when you put the ring on and I miss that small, honest mess.
37I can't stop replaying you on one knee and my chest tightens whenever I do.
38I still have your crumpled tux pocket square in my drawer and I keep smiling at it.
39I burned my toast again this morning and promised I'd make it up to you tonight; to be clear, the making up will be distractingly affectionate.
40I keep replaying your laugh in the kitchen at midnight — makes me want to press my lips to your neck when you next stand that close.

